It's difficult staying on track when you live in a city where people socialize over drinks and extended meals as a course of daily life. This either means you put your social life on extended hiatus or you try to maintain your lifestyle while enforcing a little discipline into your life. It's so incredibly hard to suck on a soda with lime while forgoing your favorite happy hour cocktail--your friends surround you, indulging. I love the booze. Beer, hard liquor, wine, you name it, I'll drink it. But is it worth the empty calories? Is it worth digging yourself a hole that will take you five times as long to dig yourself out of? No, dammit. It's not.
So when I go out for sushi, it's no to the Sapporo, no to the sake, and yes to a large house salad while everyone else is partaking of a pitcher. I am deep in a moment by moment battle with myself sitting at the table, focusing on chewing my salad while my friends down the cold hoppy goodness. Chowing on the greens, I'm conscious of how tight my jeans are, how good it feels to be free from back pain and how much more confident I am when I am not this size. It's a thinner, more confident, pain free person I want to show up for my best friend's wedding. I do NOT want to shop for a dress that's frumpy, hides my folds of lard and my jiggly wings. I do NOT want my next shopping experience to depress the hell out of me.
Just like small bad decisions have a cumulative effect, so do the small good ones. Every little battle I win with myself is money in the bank, is another set of calories I won't have to burn off later. Food is fuel, not comfort.
The useful things for me to keep in mind are:
1. It will continue to be a moment to moment challenge. I am no longer able to indulge freely with abandon and I have to accept it and really learn to live within those boundaries.
2. We put ourselves in a losing position when we don't believe that our eating habits are within our control. We make decisions and choices and can fully control what we put into our bodies. After we lose the weight will we be able to indulge a little once in a while? Absolutely, but it's going to take a little sacrifice before I get to that point.
3. Right now, with a firm, unmovable deadline ahead of me, I don't have room to wiggle.
Next the exercise. I haven't gotten to the gym the last few days but have been doing workouts at home. I really need to take the cardio seriously. Without that, it's going to be a losing battle. The circuit training has been great, I love that my muscles are sore, but it's time to get back on the effing treadmill.
I'm about to cue up jillian michaels on demand (i think i may get her new dvd) but tomorrow it's back to the gym.
Hope everyone keeps up with posting. Lins, thanks for the links. I have a few I'll post later too. Please remember to sign your posts and comments since we all show up as group member. The common weigh in day is a great idea--How about Mondays, the start of the work and school week?
Kick fat's ass!!
LosetheLard
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Just a sidebar once again about the calorie dilemma. I would like to see more people concentrating on the quality of the foods and drinks consumed as opposed to the quantity. This will allow you to be able to enjoy and savor you food as opposed to having a mindset of a "value" on every item. That said, I say go ahead and have a little wine in moderation. Red wine is beneficial in alot of ways. Light beers are also an option. I have an Amstel light when I go out the clubs with my friends and it does not derail my efforts in a significant way. However, I find that when I deprive myself of the things that I love then I tend to go on a binge. So keep up the good work just be a little easier on yourself.
Kia.
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